Hot N Cold

My dad passed away.

Yes, he did.

On Friday, 31st of October.
Exactly one month in the hospital.
I'm ' half-orphaned' at 13.
He left me with my mum and sis like that.

Why didn't I keep my handphone with me during band?
Why didn't I talked to him more?
Why did I think that the illness was not dangerous?
Why did I arrive late?
Why had God make things happen like that?
Why is it me?
Why???

I miss you, dad.
I miss you.
I'm not the kind to express in words,
but if you see this,
I love you dad...
I'm sorry for not talking to you more.
I'm sorry for not arriving earlier.
I'm sorry for taking you for granted...

By the time I've completed this, I'm crying, ok?

I want to thank some people here:

1. Casket Fairprice for helping make my dad's funeral a success.
2. My family and relatives for attending the wake.
3. My friends for comforting me, particularly:

Jason, for coming to the wake and comforting me with your lame jokes.

Wun Khuan, for coming to the wake and even went as far as praying for my father at the church.

Hui Ting, for saying that Mr Samuel told the whole band is going to come, although I knew it was fake, but I appreciate you trying to cheer me up.

Cherry, for writing a letter to cheer me up, although it just made me more sad...

Zhi Jie and Yu Yue, for sending messages and calling me respectively, to cheer me up.

4. Ms Cheng, for asking me if I was fine, if I needed financial assistance or counselling, I guess I need counsellingO_O
5. My dad's friends who turned up religiously.

Have to go collect my dad's ashes tomorrow. So not going for band.

I just miss you dad, I really do...