Hot N Cold

Ok, I don't wanna talk about today...
So, time for random :)

1. My phone bill finally crossed $30 :)

2. I have a poker face ( I think, seriously)

3. One of my neighbour and her husband look like Jay Chou and Jolin Tsai, really!!!

4. That neighbour of mine also happens to be my uncle's junior. He recognised her, cause she was the belle of the school at that time...

5. I like to cling to my grandpa -_-

6. I used to massage for my mum to get money for Mushiking cards...

Ok, that's enough... Bye...

Had band today, uncle drove me there :)
Drills ended early, so had warm-ups,
a bit of overture 1 before sectionals.
Then overture 1 again '.'

So I went for lunch at coffeeshop, before going to Yamaha Tampines with Jason.
Didn't bring oboe along, cause you're going to get bashed up by the staff when you bring a Rigoutat oboe into a Yamaha store XP
Got my sopranino recorder and reed( I got only 1)
1 reed was like $7+... So only got 1 first. And I accidentally got a size 2 instead of a 2 1/2...
So the shopping trip ended... So short...

Now trying to learn scales for sopranino... Cause it's tuned in F...

Quiz-tagged by Chen Eng!
I was forced- believe it.
Choose 10 people to do e quiz:
1. Jason Gelchan Yongjie
2. Wun Khuan
3. Yuke Ling
4. Ee Hui(haha)
5. Alan
6. Cherry
7. Jessica
8. Amelia
9. Pamela
10. Janson

-Who is 6 having a relationship with?
Nobody, I think.

-Is 9 male or female?
Female... Orang Utan...

-Would it be a good thing if 7 and 10 were together?
Ya,seems compatible! A bad girl tempered girl and a nice tempered guy :)

Whats is 2 studying about ?
How to avoid falling down less.

-When was the last time you had a chat with 1?
A few hours ago.

-What kind of music does 8 like?
Church music?

-Does 1 have any siblings?
A brother.

-Would you woo 3?
No.

-How about 4?
Too naggy :)

-Is 7 single?
I think so...

-What's 5's surname?
Lee.

-What's 10's hobby?
Penmanship. His handwriting so nice!

-Where is 2 studying at?
Geylang Methodist School (Secondary).

-State a casual comment about 9.
Easy to get along with.

-Where does 6 live?
Sims Drive.

-What is 4's favourite colour?
I don't know...

-Are 1 and 5 best friends?
Yes, they are.

-Does 1 have any pets?
No.

-Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
I dun wan to answer, might get killed if I answered wrongly...

The quiz is so annoying...

Woke up reaaallyyyy early today,
10.30, how's that?
Okay, I admit it's late, but no fear.
Had bread as brunch today O_o

Anyways, nothing interesting happened and I'm so bored.
So I did homework, only 2 pages though :p
So I practiced some scales... On the recorder.
Sigh...

Going to get my stuff at Tampines Mall tomorrow.
Also going to get B'day presents...
My wallet...

Banded today... Had drills first.
Didn't need to march for a while cause oboe is not made for marching.
I wonder how the others survived that hot sun for so long O_o
Then woodwinds sectionals at needlework room. I need more work'.'
Sigh... Overture no.1 is so confusing...

Went to see if anyone arrived for meeting, and to my horror, no one went!!!
So I ate at coffeeshop, and went to McDonalds with Jason to get ice-cream.
And he's going with me to Tampines to get my stuff on Friday,
So at least won't be alone....

And Jing Ting jie came to Ah Ma house, after getting clay for making her friend's B'day present wih my sis at Toa Payoh.
They were wanting to get polymer clay, but only got paper clay we use at school in the end, cause the shop was closedO_o
Got some clay from them and made a pig head myself.

I initially wanted to make it cute, but changed my mind and made it spooky as the black went wrong...
It's somewhat spooky...
Jing Ting jie made a rabbit hugging a carrot, lol...

Didn't want to talk too much, cause my laptop's charger spoiled...
Using my dad's now... I still talked a lot anyways '.'lll

Pics will be in next time, cause the laptop's bluetooth doesn't seem to be working...

Bye!

Slacked in bed until 12.30 today!!! Cause I was super tired...

Cousin came at 4+, and they bought goodies along!

So we slacked, and watched ' the road of the loquat' from 'Yakitate Japan!!!'

Not the lord the rings anymore... Haha...

My cousin's diabetes improved!!!

That was one great news. He mostly gets only 3+ for blood sugar now.

But he still has to inject insulin, which is super inconvenient.

So he won't be coming to my school...

Life is still gloomy, no doubt.

I somehow feel that although my life is getting brighter,

I still get that sad feeling piercing my heart... ( might be exaggerating a bit...)

Sigh...

Going for band tomorrow, then eat at coffeeshop,

before going back to school for sec 1 pal meeting.

And I heard that pink T~shirt might have colour change to lime green, that's even more eeky...

24th Nov 08 Sunny(: Ho?:)

Went for band today. I think I should seriously learn flute fingerings so I can play...

Anyways had rhythm practice, which I was the worst at... Had to run 1 round around the field.

So after band went to eat with Jason at coffeeshop, and the mixed economic rice is seriously awful...

Got called tissue man by the others, again...

Maybe I should put my introduction as:

Find out about this tissue boy's daily life as he encounters events that will slowly, but surely, into a official tissue man.

Oh great...

Anyway my sis went out with her friend today, and her friend got her nail polish and perfume for b'day present at Tampines...

And I really hate the nail polish, cause the smell is so heavy! She said she saw Yuke Ling at Tampines Mall... Saturday Barbecue at East Coast got cancelled, cause no pit liao... Stupid...

I think I'm going to go to Tampines to get my stuff this Friday, if anyone wants to come, tell me, cause I will only go if someone comes along...

Time passes, a weekend has passed again...

Super annoyed at the weather today.

Like I said, I like sunny or cloudy days.

Rain= X(

Unless I'm sleeping.

By the way, went to uncle's house and it was like raining X(

Their next door neighbour was moving.

So very dirty:(

Band tomorrow. Marching with a flute again!!!

Went for swimming in vain, cause uncle Matthew was sick... Do get well soon...

In the end went to Hougang Mall to shop, and pretty much enjoyed it.

Was annoyed that no shops had Xenosaga 3...

Had McDonalds for dinner and got a Mega MacSpicy.

It was too big for my mouth... I still prefer the normal one...

Ok, today was boring, so it ends here.

Band today. We had drills first up and everyone had to play blue sky.

I don't need to :O And I think I look weird marching with a flute.

After drills was sectionals. Me, the flutes and the clarinets got taught by Mr Samuel.

Kept playing croquets as quavers...

Btw, Zhi Jie wrote up notes to practice for Bb scale,

But he spelled it as Bb Skills... That was lame...

Went to coffeeshop with Jason and Alan. Met Ee Hui on the way and she asked me if I'm okay again...

She's going to make a super naggy mum in the future... I pity her future children...

Saw a lot of GMS(P) teachers there... And Mr Ha was there.

Jason went to friend's house, and Alan wanted to stay for a while,

so went to talk to Samuel who was eating at another side.

Well, he really changed a lot, a lot more emo perhaps?

In the end Rahul and the others going to Block 130,

so went back with Howard and Alan. Now at home...

Let's hope I'll survive tomorrow...

Had a super crappy night yesterday, cause someone passed away at night, so they had funeral set up... I still wasn't asleep at 1+, so happened to look out of the window and saw people like crying... And I ended up all emotional and cried along... I guess I have not let go of it yet... Sigh...

And, I don't know who's the person who passed away'.'

Spent the whole day reading online mangas, fiddling the guitar, and playing stupid songs on the GarageBand software on my laptop. Was so fun. I even tried to play wedding march on the cathedral organ( in the software). Sounded super MIDI though, well, it is MIDI...

Well, instruments in the band that are included in the software are:

the french horns, although it doesn't really sound like it,

the trumpets,

the drums,

the flute,

the alto and tenor saxophone(no bari...)

Yup that's all.

So little...

Okay, I know that.

Anyway, my cousins had gotten their PSLE results, and I want them to come to GM!!!

But even if they come also cannot be with them...

Why? Cause I taking Joy 1~1...

Seriously, I'm a bit reluctant to do that...

Finally, band tomorrow,

So that means more drills...

Went for band today.

Drills were really fun!!!

The dustbin ended up becoming the snare and bass drum,

like STOMP, I guess.

Also went through overture and merry widow at actual tempo.

Overture was ok except for the fast parts, which left me blurred,

and I still can't play from figure 18 onwards...

I guess I really have to buck up,

and pass the auditions so that I can participate in SYF...

Anyways, I had to attend Sec 1 pal meeting so went to grab a bite with Janson at the coffeeshop beside the library and walked past Mr Samuel ad Mrs Chng, who were talking. We got out food, walked back and they were still talking 0.0

During the meeting, I somehow ended up being in charge of cheer too... We worked on some stuff, and ended the meeting at 3pm. I stayed back with Janson to talk to Ms Leng( the trainer) and in the end it rained... We waited all the way until the rain stopped before leaving the school.

Then slack all the way...

Let's hope things will be interesting for me tomorrow, cause I think I'm going to be so bored.

And Rahul didn't bring his file back! Bad example!

Cousins came today. Had a great day overall.

Figured out how to play 'there is none like you' on the guitar,

but my uncle came, tuned the guitar, and it's now not possible to play that song on it...

Managed to take a pic of my cousin's hands, here's the pic:

He's a guy, but his hands look like a girl's:)

Wow, a hand that even makes girls jealous.

That's amazing.

Going for band tomorrow.

Hope I get my drills right...

I don't wanna get pulled out again.

Urghh...

Band today.

I'm seriously bad at drills...

Why are there so many types of movements?

What are they trying to tell me?

LOL. Just kidding.

You would have got my joke if you watched that how to be emo vid on youtube.

Anyway, really need to practice drills, and I think my hunchback problem is serious.

Practiced on set piece. Kelly Tang made the piece so hard...

I wonder if we have to play both No.1 and 2.

Did not run through whole piece, I was okay with it, cause I was tired...

The best part of the day is that I kenna band duty, so don't need fall out.

Went to kopitiam after band.

So many people went. Lol.

Everyone ate and talked, felt very out cause I'm the only Sec 1.

Rahul wanted someone to design band T~shirt, but none there wanted to.

I guess we're finally going to have something to wear for T~shirt day?

Ate and went back home with Alan, Jason had a sudden Sec 1 pal meeting.

O.O

Trying to teach myself the guitar...

Lazy to go out to buy stuff. Always feel tired on rainy days...

Also don't want to go out by myself.

Let's see if anyone wants to go with me after band next time.

If you want to buy stuff at Yamaha, tell me.

Cause I have Yamaha Music card^^

Maybe I should get a book on learning guitar too...

For Elissa: what a xaphoon looks like to satisfy her curiosity.

Went to uncle's house today. Had a great time?

Had steamboat and today lots of people came, unlike the few others that always come.

Everyone went for karaoke at Marina Country Club, but we never, cause I have band, and mum needs to work.

Seriously, staying at home sucks. I really need to go out with friends... probably going to go to Tampines to buy tenor saxophone reeds for my xaphoon, cause the reed provided is really of low quality... I want to get a sopranino and alto recorder there too. Anyone?

Let's see...

Band today, did badly for drills... They thought I was sick, but I was just a bit under the weather today...

Then tried to play the set piece for SYF. It was pretty hard, but it sounded pretty good.

Had sectionals for the beginning for Merry Widow, I hate that part, cause the middle C for oboe is the only note that still sounds like a duck...

Jason and Alan had community meeting, so I went by myself to BBT, got a drink and slowly walked back...

Helped uncle get his 金龙鱼 at Toa Payoh and he gave me his guitar! Had no idea on how to play it though...

Now at home, slacking after playing Xenosaga 2 for a short while.

Kind of feeling weird after coming back home... I feel kind of, sad, lonely? Can't figure what it is, but it makes me feel, weird:P Life has really changed so much this year, good things, like joining the band happened, but even more bad things which I don't wanna talk about happened too. Life is full of ups and downs, but I wonder if I can survive these changes in my life...

Finally going for swimming tomorrow... I dread it...

Sec 1 pal today, and thankfully mum woke me up... Cause I forgot all about it... Was in time, and it was quite ok... Except stupid Yao Hui asked me why I've put Why my dad leave like that. He thought my dad ran away or something...

Went for ADSS concert, met with Jassie and the others, before going to Nanyang Polytechnic. First up was band, I heard someone say he did not see Mr Samuel before, but he looked cool with his hair... I think their March Blue Sky was better... But of course we are better than them in certain aspects. Somehow Mr Samuel was able to spot me during the intermission. Then everyone talked before going to find Rahul and the others. The rest of the concert was fun, don't want to elaborate cause it's gonna take a long, long time. There were a lot of people who made the concert unpleasant and I was super irritated at them. 7.5/10 rating.

Waited for Jassie's dad to drive us home and he came at 10.30pm. He's a really nice uncle(: Going to have band tomorrow, yay, but Wei Lun say got drills...

Had a fun day, I guess, but I felt something was missing...

Horribly bored at home today, and to my horror band BBQ was cancelled... So Hui Ting asked me if I want to go for ADSS concert... I agreed, and she said she'll send me details tomorrow... To my horror for the second time, class outing got cancelled... Well, I can't go for it anyway...

Tried to 'season' the oboe at 9pm, and no neighbours complained. Only held low B flats for a while, then started to fool around with it. Be jealous! The new oboe is so much better than the old one, but the old one was professional, and this one is semi~ professional.

Life is bored, so let's try to bear with it then...

Couldn't sleep last night, tossed and turned from 11+ to 1+... So I was exercising hands, bending and unbending for 1200 times on each hand... Bo liao right?

Band today. Had drills; kind of messed up...

For some reason felt very down at practice... Only good thing that happened was that I got the new oboe. So much better compared to old one. But not adjusted yet, like the high notes not stable. But I love it to bits. It's a Rigoutat RIEC model. Mr Samuel told me to cut my nails, cause long nails make half~ hole notes harder to play...

Went to BBT shop and found out my money got stolen O.O $21 T.T... Got something to eat in the end though. After that went back with Alan.

I really want to thank all of you guys who has been comforting me, I really appreciate it and don't worry, I will pick myself up again, soon you will see the old me back :) Like the new song I've put on my blog, ' Let it be'. Time heals all wounds. ( Sound very mature right... :)

Played Xenosaga 2 again. Managed to kill Orgulla in one try after I started. But she killed my poor Shion T.T So finished her with Ziggy and KOS~MOS. E.S Isachaar is super easy la... And I hate stupid Pellegri who pilots it. So kiam pa.

Cousins came at 3+ and had a great time. Then ate at Hougang St 61 kopitiam. My stomach did not feel well and I regretted wearing black cause it was so warm there. Then came back to grandparents' house at 8+.

Finally going to band tomorrow. Watch out for me people.

funny facts about Xenosaga 2.

Shion has eyes like Athrun's and hair like Kira. So she's the child of those two. Shonen~ai...

Didn't went for swimming. Yay?

Crapped at home playing PS2( I'm totally into it now)

Finally beat Albedo today in 1 try, but wasted a lot of stuff.

Now on disc 2.

Shion so cool.

Have to try to defeat Orgulla now.

She's only average, but with lots of HP when she uses normal mode,

but when she's in Manes personality,

She's a strong one.

I'm not going to give up, returning to Ah Ma house tomorrow, so cannot bring PS2 back.

T.T

Why are game, manga and anime characters also so pretty or cool...

They make me hate reality. :P

Once again, happy 44th birthday dad. Hope you had an awesome day in heaven.

Slacked at home today. Did not want to go to market cause it's all the way at Aljunied( I'm still at Hougang). Played Xenosaga 2 on PS2 for the whole day. Spent like two hours trying to kill 'Level 4' but until like 1900 hp then all die liao. Went Internet checked tips, and I killed that stupid monkey monster in 2 mins... Also cannot kill Albedo, lowered to 500+, then game over. Didn't go see the NCO thing, cause I don't know where it is!!! '.'

Dad, it's your birthday tomorrow, so I'm going to sing a birthday song to you,

' Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to Daddy,

Happy birthday to you'

the Chinese version

' 祝你生日快了，

祝你生日快了，

祝你生日快了'

Happy 44th birthday, dad.

Went to temple again today. 7 days since my dad passed away... Still having horrendous bouts of mixed~feelings every now and then. Think about them, then feel like crying over and over again.

I don't sound as strong I sound, I know. But I can't face up to reality... I guess staying at home for so many days makes me feel sad. Sometimes I pinch myself, hoping that this is all a dream. Hoping to find that it's just a horrible dream after waking up... But seems like it's not.

Going for band from Monday. Maybe going out will make me forget the bad things.

A lame pic

This guy's name is also In Hyuk...

The last sunset I shared with my dad...

My dad passed away.

Yes, he did.

On Friday, 31st of October.
Exactly one month in the hospital.
I'm ' half-orphaned' at 13.
He left me with my mum and sis like that.

Why didn't I keep my handphone with me during band?
Why didn't I talked to him more?
Why did I think that the illness was not dangerous?
Why did I arrive late?
Why had God make things happen like that?
Why is it me?
Why???

I miss you, dad.
I miss you.
I'm not the kind to express in words,
but if you see this,
I love you dad...
I'm sorry for not talking to you more.
I'm sorry for not arriving earlier.
I'm sorry for taking you for granted...

By the time I've completed this, I'm crying, ok?

I want to thank some people here:

1. Casket Fairprice for helping make my dad's funeral a success.
2. My family and relatives for attending the wake.
3. My friends for comforting me, particularly:

Jason, for coming to the wake and comforting me with your lame jokes.

Wun Khuan, for coming to the wake and even went as far as praying for my father at the church.

Hui Ting, for saying that Mr Samuel told the whole band is going to come, although I knew it was fake, but I appreciate you trying to cheer me up.

Cherry, for writing a letter to cheer me up, although it just made me more sad...

Zhi Jie and Yu Yue, for sending messages and calling me respectively, to cheer me up.

4. Ms Cheng, for asking me if I was fine, if I needed financial assistance or counselling, I guess I need counsellingO_O
5. My dad's friends who turned up religiously.

Have to go collect my dad's ashes tomorrow. So not going for band.

I just miss you dad, I really do...